Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Today is the tommorow that i worried about yesterday...
I am 27, i have never like the age 27, i personally would be quite happy to be 25 for a few more years...25 is a nice age! its a quarter - its a nice sounding number, 27 just doesn't make me feel the same way! 27 makes me feel old!
When my mom was 27 she was married with two children under the age of 7! Me and my little brother - she had a husband, a mortgage and was living in the end of the last recession in Ireland. She most definitely wasn't planning a trip 4500 miles across the world on her own!
It would be another 16 years before my parents made that trip - they moved to Jamaica 5 years ago and have never looked back- My Dad retired and they sold our house here and built our family home in Jamaica...At the time they left, my brother was 18 and he went with them - while i was here with my own home, long term boyfriend and full time career, i stayed behind planning my own life here...If someone had told me then that now 5 years later i would not be married but single, have no children and be on my way that side of the world myself i would have told them they were insane?!
Time goes so fast and can change everything so quickly? I have always said i would like to be married and have a child when i am 30? That seemed so far away when i was 22 but now I'm 27 and it doesn't feel like that far away at all!
I really need to learn to be more flexible with my goals and stop trying to plan my life to the minute detail - because life really doesn't work like that! And when i look back and reminisce with my friends these last few weeks i wondered did i ever stop and enjoy the things i was doing or going through? i have such great memories and yet sometimes it feels like that its so long ago it didn't happen to me? I really have had such good times in my life - that if for like 5 minutes i stopped worrying about everything going wrong and enjoyed the fact that everything was right then it might not have all gone so fast? Don't get me wrong i was never ungrateful just an incessant worrier!
So from this day forth bloggers, i am going to really do my best to stop stressing about the little things and to just stop...full stop...every now and again and breathe it all in and trust that what is mine will come to me and whats not for me will pass! And that its all good......
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5 comments:
A 6 year old told me a few weeks ago that worry is the worst emotion because it is complacent - it doesn't do anything for you.
Such wise words for a SIX YEAR OLD!! But you're right - take the time to breathe and enjoy life around you, because before you know it, you'll be 87!! (I'm the saaaame way!!)
OMG! one smart 6 year old cos i dont think i knew the meaning of complacent when i was 6!! So true though! Its time to chill out i think!
I remember getting so fed up over the summer with stress that I basically said screw iron clad plans. I never looked back.
And you're right. It is all good.
Going off to Cayman Islands to work with visions of loveliness in your head. I was there once, and now I have blog about the good and ugly side of Grand Cayman. Check it out: www.caymanjuice.blogspot.com
I'm with you on the being more flexible with my goals. It seems so weird that I am 25 and not married. If you would have asked me five years ago I would have told you that I planned on being married by then. I'm with you also on needing to stop stressing about the little things. I do that so much and it's just not healthy. :(
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